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...I feel like I had a little bit of a crummy day. It's usually not my thing to be making sad journals a lot since I try to be cheerful about things in life and life is interesting for me and usually good to me.


I've been having ups and downs with my mom lately. It's kinda hard dealing with her when she gets a little too upset. Thankfully we worked things out between eachother and I told her how I felt but I know the situation will repeat itself again and again.

Basically she took her anger out on me and yelled at me while I was calm and collected. We were conversing back and forth about an important issue and I just felt awful and hurt everytime she yelled at me for no good reason. I did say "Mom please don't yell..." Yet that never really helped. We called eachother back a few times but inbetween I broke down. I know stupid reason to cry cause your mom yells at you. Pff. Yeah but I love her. :/

Had a little argument with *Sanoon about how I should be handling such situations. He told me I should have been more agressive but I didn't agree with his approaches 'n such but we forgave eachother later for the dispute.

I try to be a little more submissive with my mom to avoid the drama and let her cool down then I discuss how I felt later when she's alright. However I know the situation repeats itself and I cannot escape the issue even if I live a few hundred miles away from her. I wish I can avoid this in the future but I can't. I don't want to live with it but I must.

For those who think I should be agressive with her well...That makes the problem worse. It just makes her mad for a longer period of time. She also fails to get the issue and only sees her way until she's calm. What bothers me is that she doesn't seem to learn after repeated explinations of my feelings. It's not that she's a bad person, she's just difficult to deal with and I'm sure some of you experienced some sort of similar problem with a loved one.


I think I'll delete this sad part of the journal when I think less about venting and more about leaving my personal problems at the curb.


Welp now that I got that off my chest I think I should proceed with the regular journal.

Job update: I don't know if most of you know that I've been trying my best to get a job for the past year. I tried many places and called many times but nothing seems to work. My last try was Buger King and even though I was reluctant to work at a fast food place, I was pretty damn persistant with getting the job. See, I saw BK was hiring in the next town on a job searching site. Turns out they were leading me on. I'm a bit pisseda bout it because I like it when people tell me straight up they're not hiring or don't want me instead of running around the bush. What's funny is that the first day I showed up at BK to get my application a couple of workers told me "Trust me, you don't want to work here." My response was. "I don't either, but I gotta support myself."

Anyways I applied to a resturaunt I already applied to months ago that I almost got the job at but some college drop out got infront of me and obnoxiously took my place. Well I apllied again as a waitress and the workers said they'd talk to the boss and everything, they are pretty damn sure he'd hire me so I'm pretty excited about this. I think I have to get my hopes up now because I'm confident about this job.

College: Even though I've got enough to support myself for more than a few years without a job I still need one to go to college. That's my priority. I want to major in illustration in Art and minor in accounting. I really sucked at accounting in school but I can do it.

Commissions: Wow guys, I got 3 commissions and I am in the middle of working on *tyrie2001's and I got two from *Highlordvenn I'm really thankfull that you guys support my art like that. I'm more than happy to give you my artistic services. I always try to push the limit with commissions a little more than what I draw for myself because I want to make the costumer happy at all times. Thanks guys, I really appreciate it.

I don't practice what I preach.: I've told an old friend on DA that one should never mind about the people that dislike you. They aren't worth your time. You know who you are. Turns out I'm minding someone who I know who doesn't like me and I shoud really stop caring about those who don't like me. I think =swiblet is quite right about his personal thoughts about my personality. I really do care about my reputation on DA. I am known for being honest but not brutally insulting and quite opinionated. I try to be personable with others, that is until someone rubs me the wrong way.

Thing is that I learned, once someone says that they don't like you, it's over dude. They won't fucking like you no matter how much you try to comment nicely or fave their art. Even I have some who I don't like at the moment but I don't HATE them. Everyone has someone that dislikes them but what I've learned and =swiblet and I have come to this conlusion in a discussion: "That you go half the mile for someone who likes you but a mile for someone that doesn't."

That doesn't mean you neglect your real friends. It means that you actually try to make everyone like you, and make the extra effort to make people who don't like you like you when that shit will never happen. It's human nature EVEN THOUGH you know deep down you shouldn't give a shit about them right back because they aren't worth your time if they don't like you. Sometimes, just sometimes you can fix things up with that person and put things behind you, but most of the time people aren't like that. If someone felt bothered by you in the past or you guys just felt some friction between eachother before for a stupid reason like jealousy or assuming arrogance and bitchy jackassness, just let it go if you know shit won't happen between you two again, especially if the other says that they don't like you and never will. It's a damn good sign to get the fuck off their page and STAY OFF. (You can look but just leave them alone. It shows that you're trying too hard to please the person and it looks bad, turst me)


Wow fuckin long rant there.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO and THIS WEEKEND!!: Whish them a damn happy birthday and I suggest birthday art since people like that kinda stuff. It's really heart warming and sweet. Do your part, whish them an awesomely happy b-day and off you go.

Speaking of which my B-day is June 16th. Yes a reminder because I'll be 20 and no longer a troublesome teen! Yey.

WTF. JUST DO IT: I should be getting plane tickets soon for our trip to NYC. We'll probably procrastinate till the last minute. I'll be stayin at my parents house. Does anyone else live there here and going to the convention? Am I the only one who originates from NYC? What's really nice about me and NYC is that I know no directions for crap. I lived ther and should know, amirite?

Honorable Mention of the Day.(really for everytime I bother making a journal) is !!
A very nice running pose, very dynamic. Gotta love the pants, totally fashionable! I want them. ^^


This next one is really one of her most beautiful works I love the coloring and the outfit is simply gorgeous on Wicca:


Check out her work, she's got some scweet stuff!

Your moment of zen. [link]layer_embedded

(ignore how the link looks messed up, it still works. I tested it.)
*Twisted-Bat showed me this. It's fuckin awesome. Go see it.

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1. -Zima n family with On P, Zile fixing controls. - penciled

-Zile modeling on beach nude [paid]
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